I can see light at the end of the tunnel! Depending on how my CT scan goes this Thursday, I may only have one more chemotherapy treatment left. And, depending on how my appointment goes with the spine doctor, I may be permanently out of my back brace!
Now with that said, I will expect to have one more month of chemo and have to stay in my brace a little longer just so I don't get my hopes up. I am so used to bad news so this seems too good to be true. I guess it's about time for something good to happen...meaning for this cancer to go away; many many good things have happened over the past months.
I have been feeling a lot more tired lately. These drugs are definitely working because I get winded walking up stairs and zofran (anti-nausea) is becoming a little less effective over time. My body has been through a lot and I feel as though my energy is being sucked away from me. It is more difficult to focus and sleeping is still an issue. I finally got sleeping pills, but sometimes that doesn't do the trick. If I could have 3 wishes, being able to sleep through every night for a week would certainly be included. Maybe this is just a glimpse of the future and what it will be like when I am a mom and have a baby who doesn't like to sleep through the night. I guess don't have much room to complain though, I have still managed to stay active through this all. Meaning I have not been completely bedridden.
I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that I may not be going in for weekly treatments anymore, although it has to come to an end sometime. I will still be taking medication, hormonal therapy, but it comes in pill form and there are very few side effects. My hair will start to grow back sometime within 6 weeks to 3 months. This is also weird to me because I am so used to being bald and "putting on" my hair in the mornings. Bald chicks are sexy! I guess I can get used to hair again. I could get used to running again too, and hiking and lots of other things I have not been able to do for a while. I can't wait!
